After that last post…you know the one, where I committed to writing and posting something once a week on living at my edge. To be exact, I said every Monday. Well, it’s Monday and I have no idea what to write.
Ugh!! Yes, I am living at my edge every day and I have plenty I could write about. But oh the pressure I feel now. Pressure I know I am injecting into my thoughts all by myself. Pressure to come up with the perfect post. The most inspirational message. Words that no one could question, judge or wave off.
THAT…is never going to happen and I know that. But…that doesn’t stop my mind from traveling down those roads leading me to question not only my words and message but also my worth. my value.
Now, if I am being real, this is one of my edges. Accepting, knowing in my heart, and leaning into my worth as a person, as an inspiration to others, as a yoga teacher, as a friend, as a movement guide and as a human.
This edge is more challenging than any physical edge I’ve encountered. This going inward stuff is hard and takes work. Can you relate? Tapping into past traumas, old patterns, and self-limiting beliefs to find the truth is messy, raw and down right ugly at times. But oh… is it worth it in the long haul!
What emotional or healing edge are you currently wobbling on? As you bring it out of the shadows, you can begin to shine some light on it. To acknowledge its presence with compassion and respect. Thanking it for the lessons and then cutting the entangled roots, setting yourself free.
Remember, it’s a process overflowing with emotions that run the gamut. Some days you’ll feel on top of the world having squashed that self-limiting belief. Other days you will wallow and slither back into your shell crippled with the heaviness of that same self-limiting belief you squashed the day before. As challenging as it may be, don’t give in to those crippling days. Accept them. Listen to them. Dissect them. Find what’s still locked away in the deeper and darker corners of this edge. Then…get to work bringing it into the light by having conversations with it. Exposing it’s lies. Revealing the underlying connections. Talk to someone close to you. Journal. Sing. Dance. Move with it. Loosing its grip on your heart a little more each day.
Know that I am right there with you. Doing the same with my own shadows. I believe in you. The universe believes in you. You believe in you.
To connect. To open. To love ~ Deanna